Big Rube's Love Deceit

"Pleasure turns to the pain, of the lessons learned
from the strain,
of the questions burned in my brain, about
whether to love is humane I
in its touch.
These thoughts are like
salmon swimming upstream
In the tears of your deceit,
Fighting the current hurt
That kills more than is created by
the chaos of our intertwined emotions: Chaotic because the anchor
of Eros arrow has been plucked from the vessel of my undying
infatuation.
Separation not as simple as the distance between us,
my mind no longer possessed by the demons that had been the
overseers of my enslavement to your lies.
The seeds of these
lies, rooted so deeply they have cracked the foundation of
what we once shared, allowing the faith in us I had sealed inside
to gush out like a river, ripping the image of our future
together from my thoughts
As violently and as brutally as if
it were a child being taken from his mothers arms.
I'm left
surrounded in darkness,
but I refuse to be swallowed by it, my
loneliness like the night air.
Invisible to the eye, oblivious to
the touch, in its cold uncomfortableness.

Yet if I could do it
all over again, Id do it in the same skin I'm in.
To lay down
and let love die, Just stay down and let love lie: No, no, not I.
Ill stay round and let love fly, even though I have seen
its darkest form, deceit.
Nothing else could taste this warm
or
feel this sweet"